Written on Wednesday, March 30, 2005 / 9:15 AM
todae ish tues.. harnor.. so fast.. dar today got work eh.. he so nice.. sun and mon wei le me and don take leave.. sun go club then mon go celebrate don's bd.. i love euu darling~ euu r mua best dar le. me still on com. i got nth to do. haix. sorry wor. todae i keep insisting that euu dun cum becuz i really dun wan euu to tire urself.. one dae work euu still hab to travelone hour go mua hse.. stay awhile then go back home. one hour again. i dun wan euu to be so xin ku.. wan oso i xin ku.. dun wan euu to tire urself.. muackx. must take care of ur ke ai de body wor.. cannot tire it.. if not next dae nobody to accompany me le.. kAka.
actually i very xing fu le.. sun, mon and tml got dar dar to acc.. it's like we spent so muchie time together.. i love mua turtle's accompanion.. so nice. muackx. todae i ting ur hua. i stay @ home for one whole dae.. mua fren called me to go town i oso reject.. kEke. obedient hor.. lOlx~ i wanna be ur guai guai po + real lao po. rmb nortx? dar, rmb wart euu told me ytd wor.. i will stick with euu always and foreva.. unless u dun wan me le.. lOlx
hmm.. me cooked barley.. kAka. so nice. drink whole pot.. no need eat rice le.. so good.. on one hand can act as cooling agent to cool mua body down.. on the other hand i wan jian fei~ lOlx. that topid derek darling keep playing with mua FATS! humpf~* shake my hand de fats.. leg de fats body de fats.. everywhr lar.. aiyo.. bad him sia.. but seriously me really put on weight le. becum 47 lE.. omg omg omg. lolx.. me is ba ba mahx. bobian.. born out lydat so ke ai one.. wat to do.. oppx.. lalalallalalala~ [buay hiao bai.] lOlx.
heh heh.. i got the song mei you ni de mei yi tian le.. han han sent de.. nice ehx.. now i am waiting for dar dar to go back home.. then can listen to his voice again le.. waiting for tml to cum.. hehe.. can watch movie again le. mua fav. kEke. summore ish watch with mua darling derek aka turtle aka botak aka sheng hai aka laogong aka dearie aka baobei aka nsr-sp freak aka cuttie aka supercuts hairstylish aka future REDS senior hairstylish. [phew] no energy le. lOlx.
hMm.... mmmmmUuuUUuuAaAaaAaaaCccCCcKkKKkkxXxx.. muackx.
i lOve euu darling!~*
[8622690.. correct? =P]
Written on Saturday, March 26, 2005 / 8:45 AM
kaka.today ish 25th le.. time pass so fast worx.. march is goin to finish then april will come.. blah blah.. i hope hope that.. may will come soon and i can go sch study le.. lydat perhaps it'll be interesting.. @ least better than staying @ home euu know.. zuo bo lan.. i hate it.. lolx.. no job no nth.. now must save lots and lots of money liao.. lolx.. i must be thrifty.. cannot be spendrift liao.. kAKakaka..
anywae, i told my parents abt derek.. they gave me alot of advices blah blah.. lolx.. they still asked me to bring him home to let them see wor.. maybe to satisfy their curiousity abt how derek is like.. hmm.. and it's the first time i seriously told them i got "bf" worx.. i dunno why i tell them about him.. i can deny it.. but i dun wan.. i wan my relationship to be open.. i dun wan it to be like a secret.. jux hope that derek he's true to me.. i really wanna sumone whom i can be with long.. serious.. sumone whom i can commit to.. jux hope that he's not another one whom walks into my life and goes out of it after a few months.. i really hope i m the one for him.. hope hope hope.. all are jux hopes.. to be frank.. i m afraid to put in my 100%.. i've no confidence in muaself and him. that's a truth. absolute truth. wat if.. wat if.. one dae he leaves me.. aWww.. that gonna hurts alot.. euu know euu know.. but on the other hand.. i really wish that i can put everything in.. all the efforts.. all the stuffs that r required in a realationship.. euu know.. i really wanna.. i tried once, i tried twice, i tried.. haix.. but everytime all these relationships always dun worked out.. sian de euu know.. everything jux sound so contradictive.. seriously i really dunno wart am i thinking about.. haha. think i think too much le bahx..
i wanna be a guai ger le.. really guai worx.. lolx. no chup paikia, no drugs, no smoke, no nth.. but my tattoo still wan de ehx.. lolx.. body arts euu know euu know.. =P oh ya.. and try to reach home early.. dun wanna my parents to worry.. i wanna regain trust from them again.. lydat i think then i can hab one peaceful life.. if nort.. go back everytime quarrel.. bek chek oso. lolx. hmm.. derek.. please love me with all ur heart worx.. and i'll do like wise.. need euu and love euu. muackx. like i say.. i dun wan sweet sweet things in the starting then in the end very very cold de nehx.. lydat then no pt le.. euu know. lolx..ting ai hai` [
always]
Written on Friday, March 25, 2005 / 6:50 AM
darling.. i miss euu. so much so much.. euu know? feel like seein euu wor.. hmm, i know darling ish now working hard hard.. washing pple's hair.. kaka. must jia you wor.. know mahx.. hao ai ni. haha just now i told mua fren how good euu are.. then he gib me one reply.. "starting onlie.." darling i wan eu to be sweet to me not jux for a while wor.. i m greedy.. i wan forever.. can anort? lolx. hmm.. now 2 plus le.. wondering why time pass so slowly.. i nvr go out with mua frens le.. cuz dun feel like going bahz.. sat goin rush.. hmm, actually i dun really feel very excited.. called few pple to go oso.. but most of them can only cfm tml lolx. sum bu shi zai ns, then got work, then jiu shi.. scared ltr no khaki acc.. then steAd dun let.. lOlx.. reAsons zUi zUi.. hAha~* bUt i can undertand.. =)
sian lehx.. hope i can get the job i interview ytd.. so good nehx.. 4pm to 8pm.. 1 hr 6 buckx.. alot le horx.. hmm.. there oso little pple one.. can slack alot worx.. hmm.. sian sia.. go out sian.. stay @ home sian.. sleeping sian.. studying sian.. wrking sian.. actually all oso sian.. except for one.. being with mua lil turtle.. that one nt sian de nehx.. summore time will pass beri fast one.. euu know euu know.. how i wish time will go slower when i'm with him.. lolx
hmm.. dar dar say he tummy ache again le.. haix. dearie must take good care of urself wor.. dun drink cold de water, dun drink milk, dun eat spicy de stuffs.. know anort.. pOor dAr~ sAyaNgx* too bad euu now nort with me.. carn take care of euu.. )=
love euu, dearie.
xiAo lei ting [ai] xiAo sheng hai`
Written on Wednesday, March 23, 2005 / 9:19 AM
quit mua job again lex. hmm.. useless me, carn stay long in one profession de. haix.. so sian.. perhaps tml go interview jobs again bahx.. now @ dear dear's hse.. he's sleeping.. ke ai worx.. me jux now drop tears again le.. cuz i went to see my previous entries.. euu know, kinda hurt me.. so bored so bored. haix. why why why.. life ish still still so bored.. hmm.. i really hab no idea wat really interests me.. i m always "san fen zhong re du" one.. how? i wanna do sth interesting, but no idea wart.. frankly speaking, nth is interesting if euu do it long.. ya? hmm..
i wanna go back to mua last time de life again.. can spent money like water.. go starbuck slack, nua and drink coffee.. so shuang de nehx.. i miss the time when we go clarke quay and boat quay.. i'll nvr forget that moment. though we carn travelto the past, i supposed memories will be there bahx.. perhaps they will stay within euu for months, years? well, i dunno.. perhaps they might be erased.. but watever it is.. treasure the present and never allow it to be a memory.. euu knoe.. everybody has memories, regardless sweet or bitter. but wart gone is gone.. please forgo them.. it's really useless to dwell on them.. cuz' euu never know they might jux bring euu unexpected sadness.. haha wart am i preaching sia.. macham like a preacher teaching everybody wart to do.. lalalala~ too bored le arhx..
my dear dear ish simply cute.. the wae he sleep.. everything.. wow. lolx. i wanna tell euu sth..
hmmm...
i love euu. and please.. dun leave me k, i dun wan euu to be part of my memory..
euu r my forever. muackx. <3
Written on Monday, March 21, 2005 / 5:30 AM
hmm.. today ish 2oth lE wOrx. haO sianx. thE dAex paSs sO sO sO faSt.. tMl mE wOrking agaiN lEx.. still @ faReaSt buT diFF shoP nia. pRevious one is @ a hair salon, but now @ one sell clothes de.. "bus stop". confirm got hear b4 one lar.. lolx. hmm.. so bored sia.. in order to escape frm church todae must gei gei sae got work.. but i dun feel like going mua fren's hse lehx.. haix.. hen sian de nehx. go so far.. then zuo bo lan.. lolx. jing en asked me whether wanna go out after dying hair nort.. kaka. of cuz can lar.. if nort i go home mehx? that's too early le. but anywae bad me =X. hmm..
darling so got xin.. go work liao still call me say he go workx.. so swiittx hOrx. lolx. dun envy me arh~* wAhhaa.. initially i tot is mua phone de alarm.. den slowly i realised ish mua phone ringing. lolx. so funny sia.. haiya.. anyway, hope mua darling will enjoy himself todae.. and eRrmm.. let him do the customers le.. if nort will be beri sian de nehx.. euu know euu know..
hmm.. mua turtle.. hamster will miss euu alot alot de. but nvm. tml i working le. then can see euu liao.. kakaka. it's already 10 days since we r together le worx. fast horx. hope time will fly faster.. i wanna get my pay.. lolx. and... hehe. buy watever i want. and of cuz my angel tattoo~* =P[i love euu, derek lil bAobEi~*]
Written on Friday, March 18, 2005 / 6:53 PM
before i go orrhx.. i must write bloggie first. darlin, sorry worx.. say i'll go sleep but i didn't kaka. must forgive eh.. first dae work.. hmm sian. but, the peepox dere quite frenly la~ nth much to do de nehx.. so funny.. todae go work still mux act act dunno derek.. hmm, but surprisingly.. sum of them know we r steady.. cuz.. we got "fu qi xiang" lOlx. please eh, we r husband and wife le eh.. of cuz hab la.. =X [oppx]
torturous w/o huggin mua derek sia.. but in the end when we off work, we did hugx hugx eh//* the feeling was lovely, as if hugging a long lost relative. strong feeling. very. that's wart i could describe. i love him. really lotx. i wanna be his real wife and stay with him forever.. but izit possible? i'm afraid of yert another broken promise.. i hope everything can be like now.. i love euu n euu love me. swiitx and simple..
dearie, please keep your promise and i'll do likewise.. dun eva treat me coldly cuz` i detest loneliness.. i need euu badly by mua side and never leave me an inch. i need euu to control me like i m ur property. As long as euu r by mua side, nth else will seem to matter. i love euu this much yert the much is infinity.. uncountable. muackx. i m urs foreva. <3elaine <3 derek 1314`
Written on Thursday, March 17, 2005 / 7:36 AM
today is wed le lor.. tml i'll be going to work. kAka. hMm.. dar dar todae go le.. he say it's fun worx.. but i scared ltr i anti social sia.. lol. no idea ehx. becoming more anti social and anti social le.. kaka. dunno ehx.
hmm hmm.. hao miss hao miss wo de derek worx.. euu know euu know.. when i woke up, and realised he's not ard with me, suddenly a deep plunge of misses befallen me.. ARgH. jux love him so so much. he's so nice to me, so thoughtful that no other guy hab ever treat me lydat b4. hAo ai ta. lolx. he's mine forever euu know. mine, mine, mine and mine.
hoping that, tml can reach soon. so.. i can see him tml le.. i lOve euu darling. though i keep saying that i love euu, but i rather show it than say it... hope euu can feel mua love to euu.. genuine de worx. please dun doubted it. hehe.
It's precious and it's real,
all that I can feel,
is that I'm falling,
as deep as any ocean,
in ways that can't be spoken.
I am falling,for the millionth and the first time,
ever and eternally for you.
hamster ai turtle` [i love euu.
]
Written on Sunday, March 13, 2005 / 4:59 PM
brand new dae, brand new me, brand new us. i love euu derek.
lil`hamster loves lil`turtle.
Written on Wednesday, March 09, 2005 / 9:20 AM
Never be replacedBaby I love you and i'll never let you go
But if I have to boy I think that you should know
All the love we make can never be erased
And i promise you that you will never be replaced
Baby I love you and I'll never let you go
But if I have to boy I think that you should know
All the love we make can never be erased
And i promise you that you will never be replaced
I love you yes i do
I'll be with you as long as you want me too
Untill the end of time
From the day I met you
I know we've be together
And now I know I wanna be with you forever
I wanna marry you and i wanna have your kids
Thinking never compare to feel enough to kisses
I can say i'm truly happy to the same
You've made me think I'll die and live my life hesitate
There's never been no doubt in my mind
That i'll regret ever having you by my side
But if the day come that i'll have to let you go
I think that something I should probadly let you know
With everything that i spent with you
Then i will miss you cuz i'm happy that i have you at all
I feel for you yes i do
I'll be with you as long as you want me to
Untill the end of time
dEdicaTed to mOi dEarest eX lAogOng. [i stiLL lOve euu. sO dEeply. sO dEeply..][if i have a choice, i wun leave euu..]