Written on Tuesday, June 26, 2007 / 12:10 AM
Finally, i'm done with this r/s. shd i feel sad or happy? i've no idea. sad becuz we hab no connection to echother ler. i carn freely love him anymore ler. happy ish because, i dun hab to be stuck in somehow an awkard r/s anymore.. i dun wanna hear him sae those chances stuffs, givin him and myself a chance.. once and again, things still remained e same. nth changed. nth improved. maybe getting worst. ha. it's okie. anywae over oso ler. jux wish him all the best ba.. i shall procceed on with my life too.. a new life ahead~ (:
but certainly, the memories of us will still remain within me. i hope they wun be blurred and can remain as clear as ever. ii love euu, forever hamtaro alike.
Written on Saturday, June 23, 2007 / 6:34 PM
ii looked so sick. oppx.
so long no blog ler.. hmm.. todae is boring.. i didn't really go out.. plannign to go church de. but was having stomach cramp then nbr ler lor.. so boring. wondering shd i go bbdc not.. tired and lazy.. been slacking @ home for the whole dae.. tok on phone and watch dvd.. well, donovan sumhow enlighten me sum stuffs.. though sum said might be exaggerated,, but.. can see that he became a more matured person.. ha.
todae is gavin's bd.. hmm supposed to go over east coast to his BBQ. but.. so damn far.. and it's like if i go over, and go home again.. well, it's jus so sian.
went town with bei ytd. met up with ah boi too.. saw quite many pple ; yanlin, han quan, ah xing, jacky, ken's gf blah.. went to look for enci too @ cine. she's still so cute. forever my CUTEST sista. hmm.. well.. after much blabberings and gossipings, me and bei decided to go back to lot. we hab impt things to do. haha. YUP, and now then i know. that bitch is so condemned by many pple. she's only favored by SOME guys! :p
lot oso many pple. but sian. went home ard 12. supposed to go out with issac &co. de. but dearest like dun wan me to go lydat.. hais. hab conflict with him ytd again.. i was jux wondering, how "strong" is actually our r/s? lolx. so fragile can,, slept @ 4 woke up @ 6 this morning.. so sad suddenly. and i msged dearest sth.. shan't elaborate but jus felt fed up with this r/s.. ):
i realised, we gals can actually go without guys too.. after much "sight-seeing" i realised guys r absolute sluts.. they can hab a galfren yet on the other hand do things which may affect/hurt his gal either in the dark or openly.. i mean, maybe i'm jux plain naive. maybe i shd'nt hab trust him that much. guys r still guys. if they dun slut, maybe pigs can fly. but there r still nice guys outta, comparative rate of 1 in 20 of them. ha. i dunnoe.
sumtimes i'm jus so jealous of his frens.. esp. CHRIS and GERALD,, imagine they can spent more time with him than me. sickening. shan't tok abt it. if not i'll be emotionally affected again.
i shall jus relax relax and relax.
but i still loathe "sluttish" guys. fark em' all,,
Written on Sunday, June 17, 2007 / 1:44 PM
i now understand. i wun "force" things my way again. if possible, it's always good to relax and let go.. no pt thinking alot making urself miserable and terrible. things come and go.. euu never know if euu wld ever lose it sum dae.. having sth is aldry a miracle, a gift frm god.. we shd jux cherish and appreciate it.. bcuz'
it's a blessing.. A bliss.
"To Łove and to be Łoved is the greatest joy in the world.."[i love euu, my precious.]
Written on Sunday, June 10, 2007 / 7:03 PM
hmm.. now de me in msia. well.. so so boring. lolx. anywae, now in my relative's hse.. tml going port dickson ler. LOLx. that topid church retreat..
saw my frens once again. actually, it's good to hang out tgt again. well, there were quite many things to catch up though. weather there is a bit funny.. sumtimes hot.. sumtimes.. keep pouring. how i wish i'm back in sg.
first 2 daes i'm so unused there.. cuz' it's really so boring. i miss my dearest esp. lot.. but he shd be having fun w/o me nagging and kbkp-ing. lolx. five more daes i'll back. well.. still a long wae to go. hope by the time i'm back, i'm still in a whole piece.
jux so bored. haix. k ba think i'll stop here,, take care peeps. LOVES.
Written on Tuesday, June 05, 2007 / 8:21 PM
taken with dearest. ii luv him*
hmm.. finally back hm. went to chalet ytd with yy and my dearest. it's bao guang aka xiao bai's bd. WELL WELL, there r quite alot of pple. they r young though, but rather happening. dearest brought 1 bottle of martel for them, wow, so nice can. there were diff liquors too. black label, martel, chivas, champaign blah blah. they drink alcohol like tap water. quite fast finished everything.
felt funny initially, cuz' really dunno most of the pple there. but actually, they r rather frenly. esp. the ast boi. LOL. i call him xiao hong. very poor thing de. @ there dearest nagged alot of his past experiences and trying to teach him to the rite path.. and, we jux "bullied" him alot. LOL
anywae, it's quite fun. importantly, is the quality time i spent with MY DEAREST. lol. very happy and satisfied ler ba. actually, oso very confusing and contradicting. sumtimes i find that our rs very happy and blissful, sumtimes i jux think that the rs sark. it's only when he's ard me, i think is happy.. when he's not ard.. argh, jux so sarky. maybe i jus think too much. shd jus relac relac.. hmm.. love him simply too much.
hmm,, think i stopping here ler tk care peeps.
Written on Sunday, June 03, 2007 / 10:56 PM
i've decided. it may be too torturous for me to go on. i'll relac bit by bit, till he no longer stand a place in my hart. when euu love sumone, i know euu'll wan him/her to be happy.. i'll try not to bother so much, i'll try to be happy in front of him, i'll put on a brave front, and everything will set neatly. most importantly, he has to be happy. cuz` the love i'm having for him ish overwhelming,,
Written on / 9:36 PM
♥ "如果爱情已经失去了信任，那就不值得讨论了.."
what do euu guys think of this statement. it's pretty true dun euu think so. a r/s requires trust. if the trust is breach, problems will start coming in, and the r/s will deteoriate.
i always thought to myself, what's a r/s.. and till one dae i asked sumbody.. she said.. "r/s requires commitment. and a commitment is sth which sacrifices are given out by the both parties willingly. eg; time, love, care, concerns, blah blah blah.."
in a r/s, we need to give eachother sum personal and private space. yesh. but, too much of it actually makes the r/s dull, which may end up going to a nought. sweet nothings by ur loved ones will brighten up your dae, but have u consider the point that talkings and actions r totally diff thing. communication may be vital in one r/s, but participation(actions) will do a great deal in making the whole loving process wonderful.
pple saes love ish blind. love can make a person do ridiculous things for the one he/she admires.. however, did anybody think how long can this "love" lasts? human r always selfish. be it external or internal circumstances, they may jux cause the "love" to fail. since love is so fragile, why pple fall in love and engage in r/s.. sumhow, it's going in a circle. jus like the life euu and i are experiencing now - slp, eat, work, study, enjoy. the so so typical routined life. SADDED. that's wat i can sae.
ps: this is jus my point of view, public may not agree with me. =)
Written on Saturday, June 02, 2007 / 4:02 AM
hmm.. boring dae. went lot todae. met up with joslyn bei... saw ning and yy.. slacked tgt and went hm @ 11 plus.. acc wee kian go yew tee eat.. went home. boring rite. lolx. jus now in the morning joslyn and one charbo ki. hmm.. the charbo is jia hao's ex.. well well.. very childish oso la her.. dunno diao my baobei for wat. nbr die b4.. ha. nbm gd thing ish baobei slapped her hard. prob ish that charbo jus love to beng wae.. sae those untrue things. topid kid.
anywae, i've decided not to kalan so much in rs matters ler. think too much jux make myself xin ku. jux relac one corner ba. if it can last, it'll.. if it carns i carn do anything abt it oso. sumtimes when euu reallie feel like puttin ur 100% the other party wun. and when u dun wanna, the other party will.. wat hab the world becumming.. sick.
haix.. perhaps. i no longer know the definite meaning of
love.
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ii looked so sick. oppx.
