hmm.. well, ltr goin sch ler. actually it's a somehow a nite course.. part time degree.. boring siol.. slept in the morning todae.. actually goin for interview but carn make it. cuz' i'm a PIG!!!! woke up in the afternoon, as usual me searching for jobbies.. boring routine. but no choice.. felt so empty again.. very low morale.. luckily still got pple tok to me.. if not.. HAIX..
but the funny thing was, suddenly sumone knock on my door.. the mac deliveryman was standing outside.. i was stunned. tot he approached the wrong unit.. but.. all the particulars were mine. furnie wasn't it.. hmm.. lols. actually, it's jun sian hu ordered for me to eat.. so swiit can.
but sumhow i felt sad oso when eating that apple pie.. recollections of those memories came back again.. he used to buy apple pies for me to eat de.. breakfast lunch and supper too.. and ya.. the memories then were swiit.. he used to be very sweet too.. yet evrything jus changed overnite.. i could still rmb fri.. watching him eat the breakfast i bought.. well.. the feeling was undescribeable.. the feeling is so "family".. now i could only recall, grief and dampen over this "loss".. dunnoe if it's a blessing or curse.. but it's jus killing me.. the inner emotions suppressing made me feel so depressed, making me so low morale. i jus dun have that initial strength and hope to pursue those goals i wanna get.. but i know it needs time. watever it is.. i jus wanna free myself frm all the sufferings, frm him. ): now i realise.. love is actually a powerful force but it's a force which carn be forced..
HAIX. so shit can. think i must jolly well wake myself up. i'm the one hu wanna let go of this rs.. yet i'm the one hu's complaining this and that.. haix.. moral of the story is.. hmm.. i jus carn bear to let go. so sads can. hmmm.....
nbm. shan't complain too much oso ler..
think i go prepare myself for sch liao. tc peeps.
我以为爱是痛苦的慈悲
你会让我不后悔
这样把你宝贝
但你却教会我, 爱你可悲
爱不在了做什麽都枉费...
ZILIAN-ing,, lols.
Boring.. nth to blog oso. went paya lebar to do my hair jus now.. then met up with daniel. he's cute alrite. lols. so small size.. hmm.
after that went church then back to lot take thing frm joslyn bei.. finally saw danny again.. and he msged me.. y saw him nbr smile.. lols. headache mah.. then face black black lor. so furnie siol.
anywae.. i got my hair permed.. weee kian said finally i look like 19 yrs old.. cuz old mah. sadded. old meh.. i think quite cute lei the hairstlye.. but think straight hair better bah.. think i wait for one to 2 months lydat.. then go straighten.. if not hair sure spoilt.
yay! tml goin jb.. gonna go shop shop. cheers! alrite think i stop here ler.. tc peeps.
ZILIAN~!
ZILIAN.2~!
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my BAOBEI~!
so cute rite.. hamtaro
dearest in my messy rm!
dearest in my living rm EMO!~
HAPPY 11 mths anniversary to me and my precious bei.. (:
hmm.. well, haven been blogging for the past few daes.. anywae, life still goes abt the same for me.. sumhow me patched back with my dearest ler.. could see the change in him. i'm glad too.. hope it'll be a happy ending for our r/s..
well, several things happened in these few daes.. but shan't mention abt it.. and me hab been slacking with bei, jun qiang that grp quite often.. it's fun afterall.. i love my precious bei! lols.
todae she came over my hse to dye her hair black, cuz kenna caught by the sch's dm. lols. suay siol.. after dying, we went over to lot to get sum stuffs then headed back hm ler.. dearest came over to stay overnight @ my hse ytd.. we hab fun times.. laughters and everything.. hope things will remain lydat. ii love him, i really do.
tml we shall hab a happening tiu.. hope everything will go well and joyous. ha. shall stop here ler. tc pple. muacks!
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ZILIAN~!
so cute rite.. hamtaro
dearest in my messy rm!
dearest in my living rm EMO!~
