I'M BORED!!!!! lols.

Hmm.. didn't slp for whole dae.. so shag.. I'm happy.. cuz i see a new beginning.. (: anywae.. ltr still needa go down town.. gotta do sth.. will be meeting bei @ 1.15pm.. how i wish i'm @ hm slping now.. but @ the same time it's nice seeing a cute pig slping.. lols. so dumb u know..

i think i gotta go crazy soon.. every of my frens know if i dun slp, i'll becum hyper active.. cum chatty.. dunnoe y.. think i'll keep myself busy todae then @ nite chiong hm to slp early.. oh ya not forgetting tml got bike prac again. knn. fail ytd.. the stupid instructor la.. anyhow. still keep di di siao siao.. LOL. anywae.. hmm.. next time cannot tok on phone for too late liao.. if not will result like todae.. haha.. sian.

nth to blog oso ler.. keep sneezing dunnoe hu curse me. lol. k tata pple~ take care alrite, everyone...~!!

evrytime i open my bloggie's url.. everytime i hear this song in the blog.. evrytime those tinge of sadness will occur again.. i rmb that time, he sent me this song.. he ask me to listen it.. cuz he wanna tell me sth.. and that the msg is the song itself.. tears roll down without my caution, i was feeling really upset. i supposed i still meant alot to him then. but.. pple do change. and facts r inevitable.. i'm only the side dish.

till now he still tells me he loves me.. but anyone can tell me wat's love? he got sumbody so genuine there for him.. but me? none. I tried to search for that sumone special too.. chose and chose, i tot the other him might be a good choice.. but he fails my expectations.. he jus doesn't know how to pamper me.. i wan dozens of love.. dozens of attentions.. dozens of companions.. but nonono~.. are my expectations too high? no. i jus dun wanna myself to get hurt once and again.. it's really enuff.. 我好累，真的很累了*...


不知道为什么 你的心变了
昨天还是微笑的 今天怎么如此苦涩
我从来没有问过你理由
是怕两个人难受

爱要走别强求 心不见了不要留
到底什么原因我的心平静
说不难过是假的 故作坚强应付选择

你从来没有问过我感受 是怕不能说分手
你要走放开手 眼泪落在你身后

我不恨你什么 谢谢你让我幸福过
那些过去残留的美好 足以让我回忆到老

我不恨你什么 谢谢你让我明白了
那些现在所谓的等待
没有机会可以重来重来

安慰的话只是为了减少伤害...

i feel like having a retail therapy.. and i think i'll starts off with bebe tank tops.. cum i'll go look for skinnies. LOL. esp white de. cum will go reds to find halter vest.. last but not least shorts too. and and a new hp too. lols.


ps: I MISS ZX. lols~! :P

so boring.. jus reached home.. went east coast with zheng xian jus now.. sat on the beach and tok thru the nite.. it was nice though.. relax. but unhappy memories seemed to revive again when he started toking abt him.. jus felt low. but nvrtheless,, life still have to go on. for the past few days, i tot i was really happy cuz he was seldom mentioned and things went on fine w/o him. but i realised, sub-conciously ugly memories may be brought alive anytime.

well, it's not that I still "love" him so much or watsoever. no! but it's like... hais. i thought to myself the senario been back with him again, but i doubt there will be that kinda strong attraction again.. not out of love that i felt depressed.. maybe it's the emptiness. he did so many farking stuffs, and the hurt that was done can never be erased completely..

there are nice guys ard.. but i'm jus very sick of everything. love. rs. lols,, it's jus not sth that i can actually depend on. but on the other hand, i'm really envious of sum couples.. though there may be tremendous downs.. but both still love eachother dearly..

anywae, i finished my tattoo ler.. left with sum shading portions to do and colour fill up. one big patch on my thigh, really look very pai kia when wear shorts.. but still it's body art~ (: nth more! and i've finally passed my riding theory evaluation gonna take the riding theory test ler. hooray. hope i can pass! (: and and.. hope i can finish all my bike prac fast.. i still gotta catch up with my car lisence.. many things left undone.. haiyoyo,,

hmm.. met up with bei, soh boon and company ytd nite too.. though it was a short session but i do cherish the moments with my sis, bros, and frens.. what i really wan now r true frens that will really support euu thru thicks and thins.. i knew i hab a few trustworthy ones, and i reckon they know hu they r. (:

alrite.. think i shall stop here ler. take care peeps.

gonna do tattoo wrapping on my thigh on wed. tibetian skull, peonies and backgrd.. yea. tml go bbdc enrol bike.. and on the 14th i gotta get my salary again. weeuweet. (:

If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff you will never have room for the things that are important to you.

"Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness.

Missing someone is a way of growing up i guess. It exposes u to loneliness. It teaches u how to cope with being lonely and let u know that there is actually a feeling known as emptiness. Sometimes it feels good to miss someone. U know that u really care and u indulge in the feeling of loving/caring for him/her. But missing someone and not knowing if he/she is feeling the same is terrible. U feel as if u are being left alone.

Contentment is not the fulfillment of what you want, it is the realization of how much you already have. When the door of happiness closes, another opens, but often times we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one which has been opened for us.

It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives. The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.

The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past, you can't go on well in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.

-unknown-



[meaningful..]

the feeling i have right now is really beyond description.. i dunnoe whether to laugh or cry. LOL. life is pathetic. omg~! it's a great lesson to be learnt. really. but one thing i can confirm ish, i do not need him in my life anymore. (: cheers,,

pple outta, no matter wat.. stay strong. trust urself and nobody else. (: