i'm wondering.. how to make him love me like hell.. or shd i jus heck care.. it's so tiring. maybe i shd have chosen him instead. maybe he'll make a better bf. fark ass. guys sark.

i'm tired. so tired.. i really wanna get serious with u.. but u dun seem to trust me many and love me alot. i felt alittle fatigue to do all those pleasing things.. maybe i'm used to being pampered by my loved ones.. i dunoe.. i jus wish for ur complete love. can euu offer me that?

really feel very upset. izit i sensitive or wart.. maybe upfront i may look the most cheerful and happy go lucky person to him.. but.. everything i'll jus keep within myself.

i hate the feeling.. the feeling when u get too engrossed with a person that u will keep expecting more and more but yet the person carn fufill ur expectations.

i dun expect really alot.. i jus need plenty of his attention, care and concern.. i know i shdn't be so selfish.. he got his own life too i guess. he carn possibly pay farkin alot of attention on me. frankly, this rs reminds me of my previous rs with na.. hmmm.. only diff is that, me and b get tgt more often face to face.

hais. i dunnoe. really.. sumtimes i'm jus wondering, maybe izit better if i shd get tgt with those hu treat me better?? no idea. really. hais.. cum.. his ex? i dunno wat's goin on bw them too.. i'm jus too afraid to be hurt again. i dun wanna be a third party. i dun wanna be a side dish.

i jus wan sth simple. yet lovely.
i hate memories.

now i realised.. i get jealous easily too.. izit cuz i really take a liking in him already? no idea. i jus dun like the feeling. :(

heh! me and precious baobei. (:

i realise that life is rather pathetic. humans are ironic sumtimes. when u really love that sumbody, he/she might not really loves euu that much. on the other hand, when u dun like that sumbody, it turns out that he/she really adores u so much..

hais~, when can it comes to a pt that both will love echother dearly for long long long time...

feelings come fast, yet fade fast too.. long rs requires effort, understanding and trust. it might become wat it calls an habit or perhaps commitment when a rs is long.

it's hard to maintain a steady love all the way. people get hurt along the way, they blame the other parties for letting them down. but has anyone realise that in a rs there's no right or wrong. u may seemed to be @ fault, if u were placed in their positions. but come to think of it, u might not be really wrong when u actually put urself in ur own shoe, judging by ur own perceptions..

pple need to understand, accept the fact and go on. no pt dwelling over the same thing @ the same old spot. time runs and we still have to move on sumdae. "be strong" is the phrase i shd use. pick up the courage and continue on.

learn to give up when it's time to, no pt coercing when things cannot be salvaged. but.. that doesn't mean we dun try to solve a prob.. watever it is, life is an experience with diff learning processes to pick up for.

i wish everybody all the best in watever they do. no matter wat, stay strong and dun give up. though there r many obstacles & pple may not understand u.. however, life is still beautiful and it always lend a helping hand to us as and when eventually.. smile (:

hmmmm...
I LOVE HIM, my ah b (:

but still like wat rino quoted, "love is a piece of shit".
TAKE IT OR LEAVE IT.
It definitely still stands.

dunnoe why.. the feeling is weird.. izit a hartbreaking feeling again? i tot things will go on fine.. but nevertheless, it still fails.. haa. nvm. the worst senario i have already encountered, so wat's with this thingy.. so.. hais! now i better conc. on finding jobbie ba.. work hard and earn more money.. guys jus sark.

it's funny.. everytime i'll neglect those who r sincere abt me. yet, on the other hand focus on those hu dun really care.. it's weird.. hmm.. i think it's time to shift my attention to those hu r really worth it ba.. no one can be trusted. including him.

well well.. take care peeps.. nth much to tok abt ler oso.. (: