taa dang.... as requested by judy tay~~ the photo of my goin to be 6 mths stomach.. haha

life is so sian man!!! lols. today abit free in office, cuz clear most of my projects liao.. anywae i have named my baby liao.. he will be "kyler Ng". It means 'archer' in dutch, a person hu shoots and refers to getting the right aim at everytime of his life.

klyler is quite big liao, that makes my tummy protrudes out and i look extreme fat.. :( lol. 4 mths more n i wil be able to see him le.. time flies though... hmm...

so tired. have been working non stop till now. really felt sick and tired of all those junk things to do, esp, u do and do, yet things keep coming in. i needa break!

on the other hand on family issue wise, my hubby is still considerably good to me. but at times he jus carn help to lie and lie. it makes me feel as if.....

the trust is jus not there, sometimes i just feel paranoid. i dunno when will my heart really go dead and empty, refusing to care abt anything anymore. life is stale, still as empty. though happiness do come by now and then.. however... hais. do every guys really lie and lie? i just dun wish history to repeat itself.. i dun wish myself to give up and start to do unfaithful things...

i jus wish that humans can be simpler. more trustworthy, more faithful, thus everything will go nicely. really wish to just have a simple and happy family without asking for more.. but diff pple have diff views/goals in life. it's not possible to amend anything anyway.

he's nice and accomodating. can feel that he cares and loves me.. but dear, can you please dun break the trust b/w us.. i jus felt the trust is drifting further and further.. not that i wan to suspect and not believe u @ times, but ur past lies leave me without choices. sumtimes, i really felt so alone and upset.

Boring Boring and still Boring. work is really getting on my nerves sumtimes. you really have to see the faces of those farked up pple. Hear them say unnecessary nonsense. felt really sian.

my precious gill is going to be 5 month old, and indeed my tummy is becoming bigger. hmmm, 4 mths plus more to go and gill will be out.. (:

to me life in sg is really kinda boring, hope can travel to other countries. shop play relac. life's good when oversea. i love that feeling, the feeling w/o stress. but of cuz, need money~~!!!! how i wish i'm a millionaire, a tai tai. ahahahah.

meanwhile, i gonna save up tons of money.. prob will jus resign on aug. 4 more mths to endure wrking.. hee.. then i will use my saving to breeze thru the confinement period.. thus, really have to stop spending so much le :(

sleepy now, later still have to head to singtel for meeting. heng only till 4.30pm. afterwhich i gonna escape home. life's a chore working esp when u r a preggy......... damn.